How to love you if I dont even love myself?

Madness!! -warning!: bad language -

Take me, bite me.. i dont fuckin care anymore what happens to me..

Im fading, im fallin-.. but it seems nobody cares, cuz this little shit is just fallin apart alone..

take me somewhere over the city, over the sky, over my dreams..

.. bite me, hit me, fuck me, make me wake up, open my eyes..

I feel obscene, I feel depressed, i am all screwed up...

If only you were able to see through me, if I only were able to listen to myself, and stop being so selfish.. because you only take me but dont give me a change to scape from here, to look at myself, to think of myself.. to realize what i am doing to myself..


I am just killing beauty.. i dont love you anymore because I dont love me -...

I dont want to I dont think i am gonna change this bullshit around me..

Id like to fall to the riverside, id like to see my existence flooded and forgett all about this ruined world... this broken soul, this sad heart and stuff..

if you could only understand why I am suffering... If only could I myself understand it..


How to love if I dont even love myself?

Blue Melodies ♬ ♥

"There are certain moments in life when you feel something has changed, something subtle is taking place inside... When the fragance of the wind smells bluer than ever.. and when the sadness begins to be colorful and beautiful.. when the limit between the shades and the light blur forming enigmatically an splendid atmosphere... Those moments when arts are flowing through the universe, through air, through art, through life, through us.. and that depht is the plenty meaning of being alive, here, in this moment, fighting, dreaming, feeling. Then we can thank life and Love, and feel really grateful."

The stream of your unconscious thoughts

I begin to think..
a dark road appears in front of me
a lonely path, a lonely hole
but you are still at home.
The same bends you saw in a dream
but they are there
they are real
you are unreal..
you don't feel the same.
You see a tree,
good bye tree...
the tree is dying..
but all is under the water..
and the sky is blue, green, gold, blue.
The sunset is still there...
is flooding your soul with melancholy..
and when everything is completely full
with golden anguish...
..you have to get off the bus,
and you've got to say bye to your unconscious thoughts.

Loneliness Nightmares

Loneliness Nightmares .. all around myself..
.. Horrible nightmares .. make me feel scared to death
I do not want to be alone
I do not want to make mistakes
again, and again
the same way I fell
and I arrived to this hell
Please do not leave me alone
Please do not run away
I swear I won't do it anymore
I won't play arround with Love.

...

Don't Play around with love... just an advice from a melancholic soul :*

Intruduction: Hello :D

Well... Although I'm a spanish native speaker, I sometimes feel things in english. This sounds weird, but it is, so I have to let my soul flow freely, as it has to be, as art has to flow, as quantums are flowing all around, I don't want to be the one that stops the stream of art... and that's my reason. Thanks to all people that read this =)

Love, peace, music and art in your lives for you to feel alive :D

:* and finally kisses :D

PD: sorry about mistakes x_x